thanks for making me feel small, useless, like trash and everything
even when i opened my heart to let everything out
couldnt i just be give that little moment of attention

thanks for constantly reminding me of my worth
thanks for bringing the tears back when they miraculously went away

im stupid
im stupid

i was the one dreaming and making up things
i couldnt be a greater fool

All I could see in my dream yesterday night was me crying horribly. I woke up a few times, and started tearing. Gosh when will this dehydration stop. I don't even know why I'm taking it so bad. I just want it over and done with. And because it hurts so bad, I wish I never knew you. It sounds mean an I'd have to apologise for it, but you wouldn't care anyway.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Dont ask me what happened.
Dont ask me if I'm alright.

But omg. I really want to swear right now. FREAK.
Hurts damn bad.
I want to sleep and just not wake up.
Really.
OUCH.
FUCK IT.
I NEED MY AIR.
OMG.
ALL MY 17 YEARS, nothing ever sucked this bad.

KILL ME NOW.

KILL ME NOW.

I WANT TO STOP THINKING.

I NEED TO BREATHE.

I NEED MY SPACE

SAM YOU'RE FREAKING STUPID.

LIKE SERIOUSLY

FREAKING.

FREAKING.

STUPID.